Is Spring here, yet?

I have been thrilled to see warm weather roll in slowly. Let me talk to you about my thought of the day(which was yesterday). I had a men's haircut with a guy. He is older and from Jersey. He comes to Utah 7 days out of each winter month to ski, and to recieve a haircut from me. Talking is one of his strong traits that I admire. He asked me yesterday all sorts of question all leading to what I do with my free time, or athletic hobbies. Again, it made me think of the last time I really did something outside. I forgot to mention to him that I did make it up to Park City to do some biking last summer, but that one event may have been it. WOW. Time is passing...and I am itching to do something now realizing that I don't get out much.

Scott's family has been conglomorating pictures for a book. These are just some of the pictures...It warms my heart when I seem them. I want to give a big squeeze. How could you not love that face?

January ponder

January is encouragement to move further in yourself, helping others, and realizing what you need to let go of. Life is so amazing, yet so trivial. Sometimes my psyche gets faced with lingering demons or what have you(demons is a good word,but strong), and realize why you still let this be your hurdle. These so called,"Demons" are the ones that come alive when you want to go ahead, or keep you from making goals within. About this subject I had an epiphany, which I am faced more and more as I get older and wiser, why didn't I just let go of this stagnent reality? It is as easy as that. I am convinced. Why did it take me this long to realize you really can move forward and weed the garden in the meantime.
Philosophy hour brought to you by, the letter z, and the number 3.

This Holiday season was probably the best so far. It trully is the best time at Christmas because of all the family you get to spend time with. What will 2009 bring us?
Accomplishments in 2008 for our "Wood" Household were:
1)Beautiful front yard finally finished
2)graduated from beauty school.
3)made it work
4)started the goal with "Simplifying" our house, and riddance of the clutter.
5)a little more social. We are both hermits, me more so.
6)This is the best accomplishment in my life: fitting exercise in my lifestyle.
7)Happiness without.
8)I am becoming more anal in organizing....yes me of all people.
9)Scott starting mixing techno again.I am SO happy about this.
10)4 wonderful years of marriage

Progress.

I am clearly over my mourning stage-for now :) Recently, I went to one of my 2 doctors which he is a endrocrinologist, and he called me on my crap. I have to smile. As you know I struggle with a disease called polycistic ovary syndrome, or PCOS. There is no cure for this only treatment. I have to take meds to metabolize insulin(I am not diabetic). My body doesn't overproduce, it just doesn't metabolize it. In the meantime, all that insulin goes to the ovaries and produces cysts instead, which goes hand in hand with infertility. Fun fun. This is why most females with this syndrome have large midsections. Anyhoo, let me get to the point. My doctor is from India and he is one of my more,"Eastern treatment therapyesque"kinda dude(he treats me for my pcos). I asked him if there was anything magical I could take to get pregnant. His response is my conscience now and plays in head repeatedly,"Sam stop being a hippocryte, do what you say your going to do." i.e. exercise and good diet, along with taking your metformin. Ya ya I know we have all heard that one. This time it stuck. I have to do cardio 6 days a week and implement my raw vegetarian food(not meat, of course)with a little protein. He also said that we should really watch how much we eat in our diet. Did you know that your breakfast isn't fully digested by lunch time and the same with lunch and dinner? Americans have been programmed to think to eat until there full and I was told that was all wrong. We can eat what we eat only until were satisfied. I have been trying that. OMG how much energy I have had in the last 3 days. I will keep you updated on the progress!

aftermath

It is truly heartbreaking when reality hits sometimes. To follow up from the last blog for all of you who have been following, the hcg trigger did work remarkably, but I am afraid no little one was created out of this. Tomorrow, I will be getting blood work done for a result. I am not getting my hopes up because already I feel discouraged. As for future attempts we will go through this cycle maybe 1 or 2 more times...then invitro a year after for it is VERY expensive to continue such large treatments(invitro is now up to $10,000+)especially the way the economy is. Until then, I need to get myself together. I don't think it is a good idea for me to keep this in common discussion or be my main focus. I will let you know soon what the result is in my comments. Thank you for all your support.

Many of you who know us know that we have been trying to have a little one. After a year of trying, a very expensive month, and 2 ultrasounds later we were told the FSH injections are working. I will recieve a HCG injection possibly today or tomorrow(this stimulates ovulation), and this is my first. The trick here is that this causes multiple births and we are going to TRY to avoid this. We hope that we get twins! we would be fine with triplets! one would be great. Please say a prayer for us. We have already asked for a miracle, so far the light has shined are way, after a long walk in the dark tunnel.