January ponder

January is encouragement to move further in yourself, helping others, and realizing what you need to let go of. Life is so amazing, yet so trivial. Sometimes my psyche gets faced with lingering demons or what have you(demons is a good word,but strong), and realize why you still let this be your hurdle. These so called,"Demons" are the ones that come alive when you want to go ahead, or keep you from making goals within. About this subject I had an epiphany, which I am faced more and more as I get older and wiser, why didn't I just let go of this stagnent reality? It is as easy as that. I am convinced. Why did it take me this long to realize you really can move forward and weed the garden in the meantime.
Philosophy hour brought to you by, the letter z, and the number 3.

This Holiday season was probably the best so far. It trully is the best time at Christmas because of all the family you get to spend time with. What will 2009 bring us?
Accomplishments in 2008 for our "Wood" Household were:
1)Beautiful front yard finally finished
2)graduated from beauty school.
3)made it work
4)started the goal with "Simplifying" our house, and riddance of the clutter.
5)a little more social. We are both hermits, me more so.
6)This is the best accomplishment in my life: fitting exercise in my lifestyle.
7)Happiness without.
8)I am becoming more anal in organizing....yes me of all people.
9)Scott starting mixing techno again.I am SO happy about this.
10)4 wonderful years of marriage

Progress.

I am clearly over my mourning stage-for now :) Recently, I went to one of my 2 doctors which he is a endrocrinologist, and he called me on my crap. I have to smile. As you know I struggle with a disease called polycistic ovary syndrome, or PCOS. There is no cure for this only treatment. I have to take meds to metabolize insulin(I am not diabetic). My body doesn't overproduce, it just doesn't metabolize it. In the meantime, all that insulin goes to the ovaries and produces cysts instead, which goes hand in hand with infertility. Fun fun. This is why most females with this syndrome have large midsections. Anyhoo, let me get to the point. My doctor is from India and he is one of my more,"Eastern treatment therapyesque"kinda dude(he treats me for my pcos). I asked him if there was anything magical I could take to get pregnant. His response is my conscience now and plays in head repeatedly,"Sam stop being a hippocryte, do what you say your going to do." i.e. exercise and good diet, along with taking your metformin. Ya ya I know we have all heard that one. This time it stuck. I have to do cardio 6 days a week and implement my raw vegetarian food(not meat, of course)with a little protein. He also said that we should really watch how much we eat in our diet. Did you know that your breakfast isn't fully digested by lunch time and the same with lunch and dinner? Americans have been programmed to think to eat until there full and I was told that was all wrong. We can eat what we eat only until were satisfied. I have been trying that. OMG how much energy I have had in the last 3 days. I will keep you updated on the progress!

aftermath

It is truly heartbreaking when reality hits sometimes. To follow up from the last blog for all of you who have been following, the hcg trigger did work remarkably, but I am afraid no little one was created out of this. Tomorrow, I will be getting blood work done for a result. I am not getting my hopes up because already I feel discouraged. As for future attempts we will go through this cycle maybe 1 or 2 more times...then invitro a year after for it is VERY expensive to continue such large treatments(invitro is now up to $10,000+)especially the way the economy is. Until then, I need to get myself together. I don't think it is a good idea for me to keep this in common discussion or be my main focus. I will let you know soon what the result is in my comments. Thank you for all your support.

Many of you who know us know that we have been trying to have a little one. After a year of trying, a very expensive month, and 2 ultrasounds later we were told the FSH injections are working. I will recieve a HCG injection possibly today or tomorrow(this stimulates ovulation), and this is my first. The trick here is that this causes multiple births and we are going to TRY to avoid this. We hope that we get twins! we would be fine with triplets! one would be great. Please say a prayer for us. We have already asked for a miracle, so far the light has shined are way, after a long walk in the dark tunnel.

A week of learning!

Whoever made the phrase,"When one door closes the another one opens" gets a gold star for optimism. The last 2 weeks have been a learning experience and so on. I encountered my first bad men's haircut and really it was a blessing in disguise because of the lesson that was learned from it. I am happy to work for the team I do. I am now apprenticing an amazing, and experienced stylist for men's haircuts. Today, I am confident. Also, I have to keep on telling myself that all people cannot be pleased. In other news, I will be starting my FSH injections on Sunday. If this does not help our situation we will try these injections every 3 months. It is very expensive to have this done, and with the economy the way it is, it is definately taking a risk. I got a chance to babysit a fun little baby boy today! He is 10mths. old and already walking and saying a few words. It is so precious when they fall asleep in your arms.

Trip to Vernal

We took a trip to Vernal over the weekend to see some good friends(Jack and Taya Harper) of us and meet their new baby Nick Jagger. On the drive there we got to experience the fall colors in their prime. I am a sucker for this change and was in awe for half of the drive. We haven't had a vacation in years, and this one was definately rejuvinating. Scott decided to bike in the canyons 24 miles in a 2 day period. He is burnt to a crisp. While he was doing that I caught up with the whole family! Did some hair. Made someone happy.